I am in an uncomfortable place right now. I feel like no matter what I do I cannot find a way out from my sadness, frustration, anger, resentment and overwhelming discontent.
This is not the thing that people like to read on a blog and it’s certainly not something I want to write on my blog but I feel an explanation was owed.
I have every intention of finishing the 31 days of Intentional Parenting series. I don’t know what to say except I got overwhelmed by my life right now and I couldn’t keep up. I have every intention of finishing it (hopefully sooner rather than later) but I wanted to do the series justice and write about it honestly and passionately. I want it to be a blessing and not something I just slapped together in haste.
I am going to California this weekend. Being physically away from my problems usually helps me. I know you cannot run from your problems, but sometimes taking a sabbatical from them is helpful.
Hold me in your prayers and don’t give up on my little blog. I think I am closer to finding my voice and I’m hoping that is why I am struggling right now.
I just read your post about needing to get away because you are feeling so overwhelmed and unsure of which way to go. Please know that I am lifting you up in prayer right now. I know this feeling too and often feel very overwhelmed, having 4 little boys myself. I don't think getting away is “running away from your problems”. I think that sometimes God wants us to GET AWAY so that He can draw us near, speak Truth to our hearts and allow us to rest in His shadow. Most days I am not able to complete a thought, finish a conversation (or a meal), have a private moment to myself, pray without interruption or even begin to stay on top of the laundry. Sometimes, we need to take a break and RETREAT. I pray that God will use whatever time He gives you to hold you close, renew your heart, mind and soul and fill you with His Peace and understanding…that as you pour your heart out to Him, His Word would speak NEW Truth to you and come alive to you in NEW ways. God Bless you Karin! Praying for you now!
…and thank you for your openness. I think that all too often, moms have a difficult time admitting when life is just feeling too hard. And when it's because I'm feeling like I'm sinking fast, it's hard to gain perspective and equally hard to understand the path God has me on, let alone try to justify it to someone else. So, I don't try!
I don't know what your situation is right now, but I do know that our very real enemy wants to make you doubt, feel unsure about things and cause you to fear. So, cling to Jesus and allow Him to be your ALL because the enemy has no authority over you.
I will pray for you.
Its so nice to have someone who is not afraid of being open about they way they really feel – and on a blog! So often we tend to blog only about the good stuff and its nice that we can blog about the bad too!
Praying for you from Hong Kong,
Goodness gracious! I don't even know how you got to day 16 of the series with the amount of stuff going on in your life. I was beginning to wonder if you were even human, because you seem to be all things to all people at once. lol.
I totally agree with Megan and I too will be lifting you up in prayer. You are an amazing woman and an incredible inspiration to me personally.
love and kisses!
I am praying for you! I have to say that I absolutely LOVE reading your blog and thank you for being so transparent. I agree with what Megan said-its not running away-its allowing yourself the time to be still and be able to hear God.
lynda thompson says
Don't worry about the blog, it will still be here if you need to take a break.
We'll be praying for you and sending you virtual hugs.
Hope something opens up for you soon…I hate those feelings.
Hang in there sister of Christ… I'm sure we mamma's all understand just about where your at on this road we call parenting. Sending lots of & prayers, HL
Praying for you, my precious friend.
It can be good to get away and reevaluate things and be refreshed.
It's not running away…it's regrouping. Sometimes taking a few steps back is the ONLY way to ever take a few steps forward. I am praying for you, and hope the time away gives you some much needed peace. I have been thinking a lot about you lately (all good) and I hope you got a chance to read my email I sent.
Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!!
I only recently found your blog. I pray you were able to catch your breath on your trip and get a new perspective.
I am sure there is more going on than homeschool, but bear with me through an analogy. This is our second attempt at homeschooling, and it is working this time. Not perfect, but working. My oldest is in 4th, and we took a break from his curriculum (which he had gotten ahead in anyway) to prep for a standardized test in April. The break has done wonders!! I cannot believe how I am ready to jump back in and finish up. And I'm excited about next year! I think we will make a tradition out of this.
My point is, give yourself a break! Even if you don't feel like you need it, you will be amazed at the good it will do your soul. There HAS to be something that can give a little right now. Find it and relax on it while you heal a little.